5/24/2006

/cmd ~System RST? Yes/No... Yes

I've come a long way.
So this is it.
I've been told to confront the problem.
To destroy negativity.
To do all this and that.
When really I didn't look at what I needed.
I needed peace, not this fake peace, because below this fake peace is war.
Perhaps its not war but it is...another one of the negative outlets that seems to run free on this blog.
And so it seems as the final days of my time on here.
Before I became a member of S.A.P.S I was free, I was pure, (in my eyes and thats all that matters)
Since I've been here, nothing has come of it, in fact only weight has been added to me mentally.
I'm not here in anger nor in glee, I am here calm as President Lincoln's face on the penny.
I am here simply to cash out my chips and walk out the doors and go back home. I'm through with the fake sound of progress. From my very birth into this blog...."The joy of restarting again is a very emotional process but its the way of the better path." It still stands true. Peace out my friends, I'm off to go see the lights of town, and dance the night away.

Change

Change-the inevitable reflection of situation(s) we are thrown in too. The essence of change has only two degrees:Negative and Positive. It is in these two degrees for which we reflect our ideals of change and how it should be met in our eyes. In the sense of negativity, people who have had a bad experience do to something or someone changing, are more than likely to fear change altogether. The same can also be said of change in the positive light. What is remarkable is that change in the negative light is more exposed in the person or something that is changing. This happens more than the positive. The positive light of change seems to go unnoticed and and is subconsciously accepted and overlooked.

5/10/2006

Conditonal believing

Today I took a bouncy ball and repeatidly bouncied the ball off a wall. I kept this going until I reached the state where I could do it "with my eyes closed". I was then hit with this theory I call "conditional believing". If I were to keep this going(bouncing the ball off the wall), what would happen if the lights were shut off? Would I start to believe that the ball is still there even though I cant see it? Or would the belief that the ball would hit off the same mark cause me to believe that ball will be bounce back in my hand?

The same can be said about religion. Have we been conditioned to believe that God is there when he may not be?

5/08/2006

The Same Pain

Pull the trigger, end this pain.
End it all thats been the same.

5/07/2006

Ahead

Walk The Path You Made, It Could Be Your Only Chance

Look into the light

Ive seen the brighter light.

Ive stared it down so awwed.

I watched as it got closer.

Its brightness lured me in.

The amazement and glory .

I stood there as the light got brighter.

Then at the last second I jumped away from it.

Was i afraid to go into the light?

Has darkness grabbed and pulled me away?

If only I would have heard the sign earlier.

If I would have never moved, that Semi would have killed me.

5/06/2006

Expectations

The only thing you can expect is the unexpected.

5/01/2006

Fixing

How do you fix something that is so perfectly flawed?