12/27/2009

Four bottles down and two to go
One prayer up for the downed hero

9/09/2009

Your Love Life

It was over before it began

Smiling: Man of The Hour

My eyes open. All I can see is green. This isn't the kind of green I'm used to in my line of work. This is grass, trees. Where the hell am I? I can see the mountain skyline. Trees all around. Birds squawking in the distance. Where the hell am I? I wonder...I begin to wonder where the lines to blur. When my trip will be done. When will I start to realize.....she's here! I can see her form in the outline. The sun behind her shines her outline so bright....so golden. I can feel my insides resonate with goodness. That's when I see who it is. It's limps. My heart sinks so low. So low I can't move. I can't breathe. April. God where's April. Limps looks at me with a smile. I fall away now.

My eyes open and I'm in my safehouse apartment. The train rushes by to blaring. I sit up and there's a note down by my door. The sun feels like a fire burning on my skin. I get up and walk by to pick up the letter. I get a smoke out and put it into my mouth. With the lighter in my hand, I grab the letter and open it up. I'm about to light up my cig and I open the letter. I'm amazed. No I'm...FUCK...I'm furious. The lady from my dreams. I'm talking about the dream. Limps. I fold up the letter and put it into my pocket. I need to round up my troops. The boys are gonna be liking this. Now I'm thinking, why the fuck would she be telling me this. Why should she even consider telling me. What the fuck is with the times? I look back at a picture from a few years ago. It's limps wth her arms around me. However as time would tell, she'd be hanging with that guy to my left. Chuck. I leave out the door thinking about what we are gonna do? It brings a smile to my face.

I get into my car. I turn the engine and put it into gear. My destination is a diner of 3rd and wabash. I want to fucking kill Chuck. All the time in the world, all the people he could be fucking over, all of the times he was just a parasite. It makes you think who can you trust. When can one go so far to be unforgiveable. A guy can do so much. A man though, you give a man a reason to pursue what he wants. He'll take it. He'll go as far as to destroy himself in the process. Hasn't this crew of mine done so already? How can we ever expect to go back. We gotta see this all the way through. We still provide service. We still are a reminder of what is real in this city. Where the power really lies. Ah here's my stop. I pull into the parking lot. What is this? I can see a white automobile parking by the eatery sign. It's limps. I pull up along side and roll down my window.

"What's shaking there limps? Where's your man of your dreams?" I ask

"How's the life going without your right hand?" she asks me

I smile.

We are both in a fucked up state.

"I've always liked you ya know," she says to me "I was young then, the times were different. It was your charm that got me started ya know."

"You're the first dame I've fallen for, but we can have this talk later. Besides april...." I start say

"You're still shaking around for that chick? You don't know do you?" she asks with a certain qualm that makes me very uncomfortable.

"Limps...I don't want to go down this road, I've been.." i reply

"No, it's not about that at all! Think about it. Where are we? We are together here because of her."

I just looked at her with no belief in what she was saying.

"She's the one who ratted you out. She's the one who 'all of a sudden back into you're life' and throws her arms up and needs you to grab on. I found Chuck and her writing to each other. This is why I needed to seek you out. I needed you to know. I wanted to make things right between us."

I'm speechless. She was right. It was all too fucking coincidental. I needed to take this...fuck. I grab for my smokes and light up. I just want to scream. I just wanted to kill. I needed answers. I needed...fuck my right hand man.

"You may think ill of me, and that's fine. I deserve it. Things between us...they aren't right, but Scat... trust me. I've already told the crew to get here." she said to me

Sure as the sun rising in the morning. Here came Cuts and Fish. More than enough to help. Next step was to outline the plan. Limps was going to tell us where and how we'd get him back. How many people would be there to greet us. How many shots we'd need. All this stuff. The nescessities.

Cuts and Fish parked on the otherside of Limps. Limps got out and got into my car. The other two got in the backseat.

"What's the plan scat?" asked Fish

"What is the plan?" I asked aloud

"He is up at the docks, in the basement. You go down two levels downstairs. As far as security goes, there's not really except there should be 4-5 guys down there. These are Chuck's best people though. I don't know how you boys wanna do this but; I've seen them, they're tough." Limps explained

"Scat, how do we trust this one?" asked Cuts

I look over my shoulder and look over to Cuts. I ask him, "you're here aren't you?" Cuts has this look in his eyes like he just fucked up.

"Well yeah, I mean I came because you're here. But this twat..." I cut off Cuts right there.

"You listen to me, you listen to what I do. Aren't you taken care of? You don't ever say that shit to me again. I dare you to, I dare both of you to. The fact of the matter is we've been in this for a long time. Not just this Chuck thing. Since way back. You all selected me, to be the one to be under the gun. So here I am. Now here's whats gonna happen. Limps is going to go back to her car. We are going to go get our comrade. Any questions?"

I was greeted by silence.

Limps exited the vehicle. She looks back at me one more time. She was scared. I don't know if she had just fucked my crew over. More or less me as well again. Maybe she was right? April being behind it all. Either way I will see this through. If he's dead well, I sure as hell know he is smiling. Because he knows we are going to be joining him very soon.

"Weapon detail...silent..blades. We need to be taking a new approach as to our usual guns blazing." I can hear everyone grabbing their blades. "In about twenty minutes we'll be there. We will be parking about 200 feet way. We are going to going in on foot. We'll have to go in the first gate, jimmy it open. But keep this shit quiet. After the first gate is open, we should be good. They usually don't close the 2nd gate so we should be good."

We roll up just a little bit away from the gate. I can see lights off in the office. I want to kill these guys. For all the shit that has lead up to this, with the doc, vids, the creeper. Motherfucker one and all, Chuck. We hustled real low and real fast. Luckily for us there were alot of corners to get here. Cuts goes up and sticks his blade into the lock and breaks it open. We walk through the gates. Just like limps said, we aren't seeing anyone.

"Fish, what's the action been in this town as of late?" I whisper

"Cops've been cracking down on loading dock drug trades. We don't have to worry about any of that though." Chuck pretty much owns this side of town. It's not quite lower class but not quite yahoo town ya know? he whispers back

We get to the office finally and start descent downstairs. We can hear two guys talking down the corridor. There are a few doors down the hallway but they look dark. I motion to Cuts to go in that room and watch the cooridor. Fish and I go in the opposite doorway. I can make out a magazine on a rack. I pick it up and throw it down in front of our door. I can hear them now come closer. These guys know the plan. My guys know the plan because we are the toughest guys in town. I can hear the clack clack of shoes coming nearer and nearer. Finally I can see one through the crack of the door. Two. Cuts opens the door! They both look over at him and thats when I tear the door open. Fish leaps on the guy on the left, I tear into the throat of this guy with my blade. Cuts is already in front; ready to lead again. The feeling returns once again; and I begin to smile.

We take a left and just like in the movies. At the end of the hallway is the one room. The room with our guy in it. We're going to get him. No excuses. I look at my guys. They're ready just like me. We are right in the front of the door. I put my hand on the door and put my ear to the door. I can hear people in there, I want to make these fuckers pay. I motion down on my hand. 3.2.1 I rip the door open. What do I see in front of me. Our guy. The right hand to our organization tied to a chair. His face bloodied and his smile still on. He looks over and sees us. That's when one guy comes up behind Fish. Fish turns around and punches the guy in the face. He kiils right over. A door opens up behind us. I turn and I can see a person come out and shoot Fish dead 3 times with a piece. I can see cuts going in to get lay a red line down em, only to be greeted with a bullet to the head. FUCK FUCK FUCK is what I'm thinking. I'm in the room now with our guy. I pull out my gun and I'm counting now. 3,4,5.2.1. I take a blind shot around the corner. BAM I can hear a thudding of a body. I poke my head out now and it's clear. I can only see the bodies of my friends. My pals. My fucking crew. These people weren't good. they're nothing but a bunch of goddamn sneaks just like their fucking leader.

I holster my gun and I untie him. I say to him. "You're the fucking man of the hour, how does it feel?" He smiles and says, "You know what I learned? There's more to this, me and you. Chuck. He's got...My body collapses. There's a cold-ness in my body. My hearing is muffled now. I turn my head to see my worst fears realized. It's April there, with a smoking barrel. I close my eyes.

I can see the mountain skyline again now. I can see the green. I look around and there she is. My savior. My redemption buried in her somewhere. I need her now. She's telling me to get up. She wants me. I need her. This is my peace I want my heaven. Suddenly it's black again. I can hear a familiar voice.

"Now you're the man of the hour."

(To be continued)

Written By E.S.G

7/07/2009

Babe

A booty call gone wrong was I
A booty call gone bad
For one night of drinks a plenty
Was all we thought we had
That one night led to another
And soon more were to follow
Our love will last through time
Our love will last forever
You took the pill of my heart
I just hope you swallow :)